Oh my. It HAS been a long time since I posted a Mug of the Moon! I really had no idea it had been years. That means that I didn't write in this blog during the entire transit of Saturn in Sagittarius! haha Isn't that interesting? That means we have SO much to talk about. So - I guess it's time to get back into the groove. Today the Moon is in Pisces but let's start with an awareness of the New Moon we had on the 15th, two days ago. It's important because it's the beginning of a new 6-month cycle that has just started as we ended the previous one --- the one that began with the big Total Eclipse in Leo last August. That eclipse invited us into 6 months of increasing understanding and focus on Self-Worth, Self-Respect, Self-Honor, Self-Acceptance, Self-Value, and SELF-LOVE. Now on the heels of that journey of learning, we begin this next cycle with the other side of the coin, the partner sign of Aquarius. For example, how does being in a state of deeper love and acceptance for and of myself benefit the greater community? How can embracing my own diverse nature help me embrace the diversity of those around me? When my heart is full it will overflow to every area of my life and touch everyone and everything I contact. A healthy heart needs a healthy bloodstream full of arteries and veins that can carry the energy to all the rest of the systems and so nourish and support the structure as a whole. (Oh, Structure - we are going to talk a lot about that in these next few years....) Let your heart be full of warmth and care and love --- and then tell it where to go and what to do. Today's Moon in Pisces will be full of lovely, compassion, emotionally connected ideas for that.
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OK, so the Moon in Libra today too was just overload for me, and the Retrograde got me. The picture here is a pretty accurate representation of the state I've been in all day. A ghost from my past greeted me on Facebook shortly after I got up this morning, and I've been grappling with it ever since. Knowing that the Retrograde is forcing us to review the toxic people in our lives and whether we have dealt appropriately with them or not, I was not thrilled to discover that after all these years in between and all the work I've done on this person's impact on my life, I can still feel so angry at the mere mention of the name. So the message would seem to be "If you've released the toxic person, but you haven't dumped the toxins....well then.....that's not much of a release, is it?" We are misled so much about forgiveness. Forgiveness is not turning the other cheek so someone can punch you on both sides of your face. Forgiveness is not letting hurtful behavior continue as if it's OK. Forgiveness has nothing to do with the person who hurt you --- it is an INSIDE JOB, just like everything else....an act of releasing that allows you to let the toxins go along with the toxic source. We forgive so WE can stop being poisoned. It usually doesn't change anything for the person who hurt us anyway, does it? Do they usually even care? Don't they most of the time deny it all in the first place? Do I sound angry yet? One thing I have learned about forgiveness is that we hardly ever (if ever) just work through it once and remain cleansed....from all I've seen, we address it and re-address it and re-address it until we hit a tipping point and it finally goes. I am dismayed to find today that I need to re-address, and re-release, and re-forgive, and re-place myself in my belief system that knows better than this -- my Soul - the part of me that knows the importance of this person's actions and the necessity of what they caused in MY life, in MY experience, in MY growth. But -- there's a nice big eclipse coming up that invites me to "Do it again, Ms. Retrograde".....and see how long it lasts this time. Blessings.
The Winged Messenger is back. Mercury is Retrograde again for the last time this year, but this is not the time to get caught up in the irritations and petty inconveniences that the cycle is wont to create. This one is bigger and more encompassing, more important than that. It has been a wild ride through the last 2 years of emotional exploration meant to lead us to a transformational healing on the deepest levels. It is crucial to take a bit of space and breathe and write out a Timeline beginning in October of 2012 and coming up to the present moment. You can go on and add the rest of this year to January, if you have events already scheduled to see their place in the overall plan. I can almost guarantee you that you will be amazed by the endings and powerful changes that have taken place during this time period, both within you and without. This month is the review that puts it all together and asks the question: "Have you eliminated the toxic waste your life, especially in your relationships?" Realize that toxic waste includes your own garbage, old judgments, damaging viewpoints, negative mind-sets, and most of all an unhealed relationship with your own Inner Child, that is to say, with your own emotional world, your own emotional dimension of life. Right now we are nearly through with this roller coaster ride. We are coasting in under the canopy -- we can't take the bar off our laps yet, we can't stand up and get out of the carriage yet, we can't move on to the next ride -- but the huge ups and downs are behind us. Be aware that anything major that raises it head between now and Solstice will come under the heading of final exams. THIS IS A TEST. THIS IS ONLY A TEST. IF THIS WASN'T A TEST, YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN INFORMED THAT THIS IS NOT A TEST. THIS IS A TEST..........Stay awake and you can pass with flying colors, paving the road ahead for more freedom. And, as always, I invite you to a session with me to help put all the pieces together. This has been a big deal. None of us should have to try to figure it all out by ourselves. Love and Peace, Man.
The Full Moon in Pisces kisses Chiron. A huge bowl of healing energy is offered to you. The energies of August, culminating in Labor Day weekend tests and challenges, gave us a very clear look at what still may be unresolved and unintegrated, unaccepted and unembraced, in the dark corners of our psyches. Now, without all the intensity and drama, we can coax these fears, angers, shames and sorrows out into the middle of the room and have a loving and objective view of what they really hold. Take a piece of paper and write down what you find. Make a second column and write down the highest and best opposite energy to that dark one. In your mind, or on paper, merge the two, bringing the dark painful side over to the healed column. What power resides in each one that can be such a gift when flipped to the positive side? Be honest with yourself --- you would not be the person you are right now if you had not had those challenges and lessons. Ask yourself "What would I have done with my life and time if I hadn't had to worry about ________?" Fill in the blank with those unhealed guys from the first column. Then bless them, knowing how they served you, appreciating what they forced you to learn, thank them for making you grow some character, some strength, some gentleness, some compassion, some Soul. And then drop them into the Healing Bowl, add a little prayer for Grace......and stir. If you find that you still have a lot of healing work to do.......take a moment and imagine being healed from it all......and FEEL it as if it was already done.......because it can be. Loving Blessings to all. Where do I begin? How can I best describe what we have been traveling through? After all of our hard work, all of our epiphanies and breakthroughs, all of the increased light shining in us and around us, how can things be suddenly so dark? I could tell you where the planets are and how they are going about causing the power outage, but do I even need to? If we return to our view of Saturn coming into the classroom and saying, "We only have a few months of class left....tell me what you don't understand and what you haven't finished, and let's get it handled before the end of the semester"......then add to that the image of a drill sergeant slamming through the door and yelling, "Dammit, people! Nobody should have flunked that test yesterday ---- I told you to show me what you still didn't get!! What's the bloody problem? Get all of it out - now - let me see what we still have to do!" We have been in a particularly difficult experience called "Custer's Last Stand". This is when the Saboteur of the Unconscious....the Trickster.....realizes that you are just about to reach a tipping point and be in more control of yourself, your thinking, your life, than It is. It gathers all the power It has left and throws the book at you. What's in the book? All your old slimy, self-loathing, self-hating, other-hating, world-hating, frustrated, unfulfilled, unexpressed feelings, judgments, desires, prejudices.....the terrorist that lives inside you. And the question is, "Is he still powerful? How powerful is he now?" We get sucker-punched in the nose, and we hit back. So we get punched in the jaw, and we hit back. So we get punched in the gut. All the while, the Saboteur is saying "How far down into the old dark depths of your unchanged, unrefined self can I drag you?" It has been hot, heavy, hard and dark. And we ARE coming back out of the cave now. Be gentle with yourself and be gentle with others. These are powerful and trying tests.....meant to test the temper of our steel. Hold on to the light you see ahead. Turn loose of everything else.
The Moon is in Gemini today -- thinking, thinking....no, I had to go and look. Things are moving so powerfully now that I have trouble keeping track from day to day. In the picture above, we see Saturn, our karmic teacher, coming back into the classroom and asking us, "OK - what have we not covered during the last 2 years? If you missed an assignment, make sure you get it turned in soon. If there was a section of the class material that you couldn't grasp, make sure you let me know. We only have 4 months left. I have to make sure you finish all your homework." Let's face it - it's been quite a ride, these last 2 years. To recap, we have been on a deeply intense journey of emotional healing - whether we wanted to go or not. Resistance has been futile - life circumstances have taken us where they needed to...kicking and screaming if they had to....but we HAVE had to deal with our emotional world, our emotional selves, one way or the other. We have a little time left to pull it all together and make sense of it, allowing and embracing the healing that has been inherent....or hidden....in the events that were brought to us. We need to pay attention. We need to get this work done. And we need to let it all go on Solstice Day, 2014. January, 2015 will bring a new cycle rooted in our spiritual beliefs, our ability to be authentic and to stand in our integrity. We will be asked, "What is your definition of Truth and Freedom?" If we pass the final exam of this semester in Scorpio, we will have a beautiful new Sagittarius answer ready at the New Year. Here is a detailed explanation of what I mean when I say, "finish the work of the last 2 years". Contact me if you want to feel more prepared for Truth and Freedom! Welcome, Fire. We invite you in to dry the damp ground, to dry our dampened hearts, to warm our wet, chilled spirits. We've been drowning in the deep recesses of our unrecognized and unresolved emotions for what feels like a long time now....unable to get our heads above water, unable to shake the film of emotion from our eyes, unable to see where it's coming from, unable to stop the flow. The New Moon in Aries today brings us the beginning of the New Year, energetically and astrologically. And boy, do we need it. After a year and a half of intense emotional work, the journey has taken us even deeper into the corners of our collective and karmic layers. We have not one, but both of the strongest patterns of energy swirling in us and around us now. We need to be able to direct it all and fuel it with positive emotions, utilizing that power to create in our lives. That's hard to do when you're drowning. In the last few weeks, I have had the opportunity to work with many of you on part of this current experience, the Grand Trine in Water. Together we have processed it all through a formula for articulation, understanding and transformation, allowing you to see clearly why you have been feeling what you have been feeling and giving you tools to turn it around so all that force and flow can be colored with the shades of your individual emotional desires. I invite all of you who have done this formula with me to comment on it and encourage others to work through it consciously. Let us know in your own words how it helped, what it helped, what changed. I have been blessed with more powerfully positive feedback from my clients on this technique than I ever have been on any previous work. I am so honored to have such wonderfully conscious and self-aware people with which to explore these amazing inner depths. I have been fascinated at the extent of the journey with each one of you. With all that said, today's New Moon beckons with a whole new beginning, a fresh start that ignites the new self so recently discovered under all that water. Time to take all those realizations and breakthroughs and really kick it into high gear. Fire it up today and tomorrow. Celebrate the heat of creative self-expression and self-appreciation that lives in the heart of Aries and in the heart of you. And for those of you still drowning....we will have this constant flow of powerful feelings until July -- you want to feel better before then, don't you? I can help with that. Happy New Year! We begin 2014 with a New Moon in Capricorn, at 5:15 a.m. on January 1st here in Central Time, USA. Capricorn is ruled by Saturn, bringing our attention once again....and still....to the fact that we are less than halfway through the Scorpio class we are all in, which began in October, 2012. This last year now ended held many challenges and many opportunities for us to embrace our emotional selves and understand the place that feelings have in our lives, working toward mastery of this particular piece of our experience. Inner Child work has now become a much deeper and more profound exploration. I've seen amazing journeys and fantastic breakthroughs with many clients who are addressing the neglected potential for joy in a new and clearer way. My own work in this area has expanded into places I couldn't have imagined a year ago, and I am so grateful to the students and clients who continue to astound me and teach me. One thing we discovered together this year was that we are not accustomed to experiencing intense joy......we are accustomed to intense pain and sorrow, intense fear and dread, intense anger and frustration....but not intense joy, and many of us have begun to actually PRACTICE the imagination of a moment full of a level of happiness and bliss that equals the intensity level of the pain we have suffered. It's a surprise to me that we need to practice this event, not being that familiar with it. And isn't that a shame? We still have quite a way to go down this road, this trip with Saturn through our deep emotional realms, but hopefully, like the goat in this picture above, we are sitting higher up on the mountain that we were a year ago, reviewing our growth, stability, maturity, and accomplishment with wisdom gleaned from every moment that challenged us. A safe and Happy New Year to you all. May we find new ways to make the world a better place for us all in this brand new 2014. The Pisces Moon the last few days brought a deeply emotional quality to our attempts to process the information given us by the retrograde. Scorpio always creates the deepest, the most profound, the most intense, the most emotionally impacting. As I continued down the current rabbit hole of my trip through the past, I discovered the top keyword for this most recent Mercury conversation.....RETRIEVE. Six years ago, I began another entirely new life, and, although I am thrilled with what it has become and fulfilled in many ways by all the changes, I find that so many pieces of myself have been lying by the side of the road - opossum-like - in a state of coma that feels very near to death. Through the wise and gentle words of a dear close one, I see now that my yearning for what once was is actually the need to retrieve those neglected and starving pieces of myself, RESUSCITATE them, REINVIGORATE them, breathe the Breath of Life back into them by celebrating them, and then pull them into present time, discovering as I go how to create the deeper, more profound, more intense new future from the magical beauty that they originally held. New "RE" words to put at the top of my list for these 3 very special times of the year....and new reasons to be so deeply and profoundly grateful for the wonderful loving people in my life.
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