OK, so the Moon in Libra today too was just overload for me, and the Retrograde got me. The picture here is a pretty accurate representation of the state I've been in all day. A ghost from my past greeted me on Facebook shortly after I got up this morning, and I've been grappling with it ever since. Knowing that the Retrograde is forcing us to review the toxic people in our lives and whether we have dealt appropriately with them or not, I was not thrilled to discover that after all these years in between and all the work I've done on this person's impact on my life, I can still feel so angry at the mere mention of the name. So the message would seem to be "If you've released the toxic person, but you haven't dumped the toxins....well then.....that's not much of a release, is it?" We are misled so much about forgiveness. Forgiveness is not turning the other cheek so someone can punch you on both sides of your face. Forgiveness is not letting hurtful behavior continue as if it's OK. Forgiveness has nothing to do with the person who hurt you --- it is an INSIDE JOB, just like everything else....an act of releasing that allows you to let the toxins go along with the toxic source. We forgive so WE can stop being poisoned. It usually doesn't change anything for the person who hurt us anyway, does it? Do they usually even care? Don't they most of the time deny it all in the first place? Do I sound angry yet? One thing I have learned about forgiveness is that we hardly ever (if ever) just work through it once and remain cleansed....from all I've seen, we address it and re-address it and re-address it until we hit a tipping point and it finally goes. I am dismayed to find today that I need to re-address, and re-release, and re-forgive, and re-place myself in my belief system that knows better than this -- my Soul - the part of me that knows the importance of this person's actions and the necessity of what they caused in MY life, in MY experience, in MY growth. But -- there's a nice big eclipse coming up that invites me to "Do it again, Ms. Retrograde".....and see how long it lasts this time. Blessings.
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The Winged Messenger is back. Mercury is Retrograde again for the last time this year, but this is not the time to get caught up in the irritations and petty inconveniences that the cycle is wont to create. This one is bigger and more encompassing, more important than that. It has been a wild ride through the last 2 years of emotional exploration meant to lead us to a transformational healing on the deepest levels. It is crucial to take a bit of space and breathe and write out a Timeline beginning in October of 2012 and coming up to the present moment. You can go on and add the rest of this year to January, if you have events already scheduled to see their place in the overall plan. I can almost guarantee you that you will be amazed by the endings and powerful changes that have taken place during this time period, both within you and without. This month is the review that puts it all together and asks the question: "Have you eliminated the toxic waste your life, especially in your relationships?" Realize that toxic waste includes your own garbage, old judgments, damaging viewpoints, negative mind-sets, and most of all an unhealed relationship with your own Inner Child, that is to say, with your own emotional world, your own emotional dimension of life. Right now we are nearly through with this roller coaster ride. We are coasting in under the canopy -- we can't take the bar off our laps yet, we can't stand up and get out of the carriage yet, we can't move on to the next ride -- but the huge ups and downs are behind us. Be aware that anything major that raises it head between now and Solstice will come under the heading of final exams. THIS IS A TEST. THIS IS ONLY A TEST. IF THIS WASN'T A TEST, YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN INFORMED THAT THIS IS NOT A TEST. THIS IS A TEST..........Stay awake and you can pass with flying colors, paving the road ahead for more freedom. And, as always, I invite you to a session with me to help put all the pieces together. This has been a big deal. None of us should have to try to figure it all out by ourselves. Love and Peace, Man.
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