OK, so the Moon in Libra today too was just overload for me, and the Retrograde got me. The picture here is a pretty accurate representation of the state I've been in all day. A ghost from my past greeted me on Facebook shortly after I got up this morning, and I've been grappling with it ever since. Knowing that the Retrograde is forcing us to review the toxic people in our lives and whether we have dealt appropriately with them or not, I was not thrilled to discover that after all these years in between and all the work I've done on this person's impact on my life, I can still feel so angry at the mere mention of the name. So the message would seem to be "If you've released the toxic person, but you haven't dumped the toxins....well then.....that's not much of a release, is it?" We are misled so much about forgiveness. Forgiveness is not turning the other cheek so someone can punch you on both sides of your face. Forgiveness is not letting hurtful behavior continue as if it's OK. Forgiveness has nothing to do with the person who hurt you --- it is an INSIDE JOB, just like everything else....an act of releasing that allows you to let the toxins go along with the toxic source. We forgive so WE can stop being poisoned. It usually doesn't change anything for the person who hurt us anyway, does it? Do they usually even care? Don't they most of the time deny it all in the first place? Do I sound angry yet? One thing I have learned about forgiveness is that we hardly ever (if ever) just work through it once and remain cleansed....from all I've seen, we address it and re-address it and re-address it until we hit a tipping point and it finally goes. I am dismayed to find today that I need to re-address, and re-release, and re-forgive, and re-place myself in my belief system that knows better than this -- my Soul - the part of me that knows the importance of this person's actions and the necessity of what they caused in MY life, in MY experience, in MY growth. But -- there's a nice big eclipse coming up that invites me to "Do it again, Ms. Retrograde".....and see how long it lasts this time. Blessings.
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