Where do I begin? How can I best describe what we have been traveling through? After all of our hard work, all of our epiphanies and breakthroughs, all of the increased light shining in us and around us, how can things be suddenly so dark? I could tell you where the planets are and how they are going about causing the power outage, but do I even need to? If we return to our view of Saturn coming into the classroom and saying, "We only have a few months of class left....tell me what you don't understand and what you haven't finished, and let's get it handled before the end of the semester"......then add to that the image of a drill sergeant slamming through the door and yelling, "Dammit, people! Nobody should have flunked that test yesterday ---- I told you to show me what you still didn't get!! What's the bloody problem? Get all of it out - now - let me see what we still have to do!" We have been in a particularly difficult experience called "Custer's Last Stand". This is when the Saboteur of the Unconscious....the Trickster.....realizes that you are just about to reach a tipping point and be in more control of yourself, your thinking, your life, than It is. It gathers all the power It has left and throws the book at you. What's in the book? All your old slimy, self-loathing, self-hating, other-hating, world-hating, frustrated, unfulfilled, unexpressed feelings, judgments, desires, prejudices.....the terrorist that lives inside you. And the question is, "Is he still powerful? How powerful is he now?" We get sucker-punched in the nose, and we hit back. So we get punched in the jaw, and we hit back. So we get punched in the gut. All the while, the Saboteur is saying "How far down into the old dark depths of your unchanged, unrefined self can I drag you?" It has been hot, heavy, hard and dark. And we ARE coming back out of the cave now. Be gentle with yourself and be gentle with others. These are powerful and trying tests.....meant to test the temper of our steel. Hold on to the light you see ahead. Turn loose of everything else.
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Ty for the reminder!!!!!!!
9/3/2014 09:45:01 am
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Thank you!
9/3/2014 08:20:07 pm
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